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[21 Jan 2004|02:44am] |
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for the last time, folks. i have created a new livejournal. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) longshot_dreams. if you don't add it i will be forced to destroy you all. i even made it a pretty link so you can just click on it. unless, of course, you haven't added me because you hate me. in which case you're a fucker.
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| READ ME PLEASE THANKS |
[22 Dec 2003|10:34pm] |
dear everybody who is on my livejournal friends list. i made a new livejournal, the name is longshot_dreams i've already posted the address once, don't make me post it again! AND don't make me comment on all of the journals of the people that i've added and personally invite you to join the ranks of the elite by my new journal's right-hand side.
thank you. that is all.
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| let me hold it close and keep it here. |
[19 Dec 2003|03:24am] |
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so yeah... i made a new livejournal. i am going to slowly transition from this one to that one. i'm going to add people and stuff, tomorrow though. it's lateish, and i'm tiredish. i am going to be more honest, though. way back when, when i actually expressed things of substance i think i was more at ease with myself. so let's try to get back into that groove.
i read that notwist is playing in nyc on feb 2nd. thank you mike for this information. i believe i will have to go, and so will ryan, and so will my coworker jen. ah well, goodnight again.
oh yeah, the new livejournal name is longshot_dreams
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[16 Dec 2003|04:07am] |
what's this!? they now make low-rise underwear! they do. modeled by yours truly. i just posted these to my community, heh. good times.
( i'm not gonna waste this time )
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| hallelujah for sleeping pills |
[15 Dec 2003|02:41pm] |
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her space holiday - sleeping pills |
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so last night was the urban holiday party... damn.
all right, me and sharleen were bursting with energy and excitement; more than anybody else in the store. we met on the train and revealed our grand outfits. i ran into tina, i forgot how much i like her. sharleen liked her too. anyway, we got to the city and went to the veg-city diner. we had vegan pancakes, it was good times. the rain, however, was not good times. we got soaked, twice... but we finally got to urban, and we were both very, very excited. only to find out only two of the 15 or so people who said they were going to come actually went. those two were me and sharleen. cassie went, with steven and anthony. but cassie knew the kids from store 46 (the store we were at)... so she was giving them her attention and steve/anthony followed. amanda was there too, but shortly before coming to my store she worked at store 46... so the friend deal applied too.
anyway, we were alone... and lonely for quite some time. we were told before the party that absolutely no alcohol was allowed. not before, not during, not after... so obviously, me and sharleen had nothing to drink. so you'd guess our amazement walking into a room filled with drunk people. and you'd guess our amazement again seeing our managers come in drunk as well. it was very "do as we say not as we do" and as a result... we were uncomfortable and sober, while everybody else was very drunk and very social. bad times.
there was an award given to one person from each store. the VIBE award. it's given to someone who truly embodies the spirit of urban outfitters. and it's more than just doing work well... it's projecting the store in a positive light. being excellent at customer service. coming to work with a good attitude and making sure the customers see that good attitude... so you'd see how we were both amazed when a stock guy won the award. he's a hard worker... but he barely interacts with customers and he barely ever works on the floor... so i don't get it. we found out that each manager had to pick one person from each department they thought should win the award. which would have been fair if there were the same number of people in each department. but there aren't. there are 6 people in my department, 12 (or 14) people in women's, and only 2 people in stock... which means, if one stock guy is better than the other he gets a vote from every manager and automatically wins. not good times.
anyway, after the party everybody was going out drinking. and it was suggested that maybe we'd have a good time doing that... but sharleen had work at 7, and i'm underage... so we came home. sat behind some loud kids who had just come back from a mindless self indulgence show, transferred on to a train with no electricity (no lights, no heat), and then some guy tried to follow me home from the train station.
bad night?
no.
horrible night.
i did get pictures though, maybe we'll look happy in them.
ryan you need to come home now, not Friday.
nobody from our job showed up until about 30mins before the party ended.
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[13 Dec 2003|10:09pm] |
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dear ryan pfluger.
when we are on the phone, arguing. do not put me on hold to reinact the argument to sarah meskin.
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[13 Dec 2003|01:26am] |
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sharleen. call urban as soon as you get up in the morning! i believe city plans have changed :(
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| this can't be. it hurts too much to breathe. |
[12 Dec 2003|02:06am] |
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Angels in America is indeed, amazing. I can't get over it. Like Mike before me, I am speechless. What amazes me more than this being filmed is that I feel it so much.
Feelings like this remind of me of this boy I'm completely and totally in love with. His name is Ryan Pfluger. I'm silly because I'm waiting up for him, and he's going out. I have work at 8... so I have to be up at 7. I know i'm not going to stay up any longer, I should have gone to bed 2 hours ago. I miss him so much.
Anyway, back to being hardcore. Um, yes... piss, blood, alcohol, dancing at shows, listening to obscure music, screaming, tight pants, etc. etc.
Sunday is the Urban Outfitters holiday party. I need to go out to the city and find a blazer. I do believe there is a chance one Ms. Sharleen will be going with me. Fun times... fun times indeed. Now it's time for bed.
ps. blood, piss, guns, alcohol, etc.
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| should i be with you? should i forget about me? |
[08 Dec 2003|02:41pm] |
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Rainer Maria - The Awful Truth Of Loving |
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every time i listen to rainer maria i think of heather and i smile a lot.
every time i think of heather i think of new paltz.
i miss ryan. so so much.
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| thanksgiving is boring. |
[27 Nov 2003|06:23pm] |
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so i'm bored. i was doing a random journal search and i came across this girl. i don't remember he livejournal name, i was just reading entries not info. anyway, in one of her entries she talks about being half jamaican and half irish. she said she looks more black than white, but she's "not black". she "cannot be both" so she had to choose one. she chose white.
being biracial myself, people like that more than annoy me. they anger me to the utmost degree. i could never imagine myself as black kyle, or native american. i am kyle, who is both black and native american. and that's fine. i understand how it can sometimes be difficult to deal with as you're growing up; but to actively deny part of yourself is ridiculous, as far as i'm concerned.
eh, pathetic.
today at 7-11 some guy said "happy pilgrim day". shortly after that, he said "happy cracker day".
good times, good times.
ps. tomorrow is ryan's birthday and it's going to be so special. i bought him so many things, heh. kyle, you sure are amazing.
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[25 Nov 2003|04:23am] |
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12/18/2003 @ Insomnia, East Meadow, NY (Long Island)
Alexisonfire, This Day Forward, On the Might of Princes, A Life Once Lost
THIS DAY FORWARD FAREWELL SHOWS we play 1st, come early. $10.00
otmop like whoa.
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| i'm a mess. i guess. |
[23 Nov 2003|06:54pm] |
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i believe i will join the club, and edit my friends list. only difference is, i don't really think people should comment if they want to stay on. i mean... that's like, you proving to me that i think you're worthy or something to that effect. which is lame... but yeah. tomorrow i'll do what i have to do.
<3
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| dance. |
[17 Nov 2003|12:35am] |
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i haven't updated in more than a week. i'm silly, and unproductive.
urban is treating me very well. lots of hours, lots of busy time. this means... lots of overtime. having money again is a good thing. i've realized i'm a retail whore, bouncing from store to store in roosevelt field mall. it's all good, though. i'm making lots of friends, and they seem to be friends with lot of my friends, and listen to the same music i listen to. i bought this jacket there. diesel like woah.
lip re-piercing plans have been mutilated, reconfigured, and reconstituded. that's fine. i will be piereced again kids, don't you mind. getting my tongue redone is also in the works. and i'm designing the rest of my back piece FINALLY. i need to get that work done soonish. because yeah... i want it. mods like what? mods like woah.
i'm graduating from nassau after next semester. then i am taking the following semester off to make money, and a portfolio... and then we're off to the wonderous new york city. to make something of ourself. i want to major in interior design, which is a little faggy, but whatever. maybe i'll spray some blood on a wall, and then it'll be scene.
those of you on or around long island should come to my store and visit. you can see the rooms that i helped design. the regional merchandiser liked them, so if you don't you're obviously insane. it's good work, i promise you this. i miss dawn, and matt, and jamie, and ali, and ryan, and john, and sarah.
that is all.
ps. geoff from thursday looks like golem.
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[17 Nov 2003|12:17am] |
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i don't really know |
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maybe i should stop being such an idiot, and get over some things. it happens.
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| why speak through false windows? |
[08 Nov 2003|01:40am] |
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ryan took this picture of me. amazing as usual.
i do not have a freak half penis. most of it is hidden in the shadows. thanks.
urban outfitters is going amazingly well. i love sharleen to death, and i'm looking forward to the possibility of julian coming down to visit her (us?) word. julian is good people, methinks. i like him a lot.
oh yeah, so i saw sam champion at the mall. he was walking around, holding hands with his boyfriend. his boyfriend looks like a taller, slightly less attractive version of tyson beckford. my friend said "your boyfriend is black!?!? kyle's boyfriend is white!!" and we all had a good laugh. ah, that darn sam champion.
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[07 Nov 2003|08:37pm] |
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it doesn't matter |
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life in pictures - an aging monolith |
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i'm sorry, i didn't know being courteous was too much for you to handle. i hate how asking that people do simple things for me somehow makes me into some insane monster. i should just expect less.
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| blah. |
[05 Nov 2003|01:25am] |
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i don't know |
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joy division - day of the lords |
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dear anybody,
please stab me in the throat.
love,
kyle.
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